yaaa i hate when people drive, i only trust my 1 friend... everytime else i close my eyes when im with them... its hard to trust people once uve been fucked by people...

 

your going to have that fear its naturel, kinda like a relationship, a serious relationship..... you are afarid of getting hurt, so at first you push it away, then you slowly turn to it, and start to "met" people, then you start to "date" people, then so on. its the fear of becoming hurt again is whats holding one back, no one will call you a puss for taking your time. baby steps at first, if you have too, take it just around the block at first and build your way back up.

 

perfect example with the relationship... ahhh thats what im going through right now

 

Thanks alot for the replies.... I appreciate it.

Alot of what y'all said makes alot of sense and I feel alot better about myself knowing that the fear is normal. Glad it's not just me.

If and when I get back on, I'll be sure to hit a few of you up.....I think riding in a small group would help me to feel more visible out there.

 

2 years ago i got nailed by a drunk driver in a pick up truck... she dragged me almost 40 feet... ruined my bike... thankfully i had all my gear and i walked away with minor injuries....I had the jivers about getting back on , I would never think someone a pussy because they were nervous about the risk in volved with riding a street bike.... Its a risk you take every time you decide to leave your drive way... I can tell you since my accident , my riding style has not changed all too much , and i wouldnt use the word paranoid , but i would say more "aware" of my surroundings...Accidents just prove to you how fragile life is , i think just about everyone on this site has lost someone close to them due to some form of tragedy... Cecil is right , if you have doubts , either restrict your riding to certain less populated roads , or hold off for a while until you have more confidence to jump back on....

 

How exactly did you go down Chris?

 

This is what I was going to suggest. My Father had a almost fatal bike accident back in... '92. Was in the hospital for MONTHS and has been having surgeries every year since to help his left knee finally leading up to a full knee replacement last year. It has affected every aspect of his life. But in Feb he committed himself to buying another bike (' 06 vtx 1300) and riding again. The bike sat in the garag or weeks before he got the courage to actually take it out. And on our first ride, It was noticable that he was very shaken. Our rides got longer and longer and now its been a few months, he riding more and more.

It sounds like everyone agrees that if you take your time you'll get back in the groove. Just don't do it untill your ready.

 

I was headed towards Madeira Beach on Tyrone Blvd and a car (driven by a 60 yr old man) in the opposite direction ran a red left turn arrow on Park Street.... since I had the green light, I was doing about 40 mph or so... When I got hit I flew over the car's hood in the air and landed in the street and slid for a little bit... My bike was trashed, but I didn't think there was a whole lot wrong with me besides some rash around my ankles and wrists.

I refused the ambulance ride to the hospital because at first I thought I was going to be ok, but after the ambulace left I started to get really funny feelings in my stomach area, like someone was tickling me...on the inside. So, once I got my bike trailered home, I headed straight for the bathroom and when I pissed there was no clear or yellow anything..... it was all blood red. So, I was bleeding internally...which meant that I was definitely not going to man-up and tough it out.

So, on the way to the ER the pain starts to really kick up... the adrenaline must have been wearing off too...

Bruised kidneys, 3 broken ribs, rash and they never could find where I was bleeding from...

I stayed in the hospital for a couple of days....

The biggest "mental" image I have is pissing all of the blood and feeling the tickle of bleeding really bad on the inside...

And knowing how just one dumbass move that someone else makes can make serious changes to my life...that is what I need to get past.

 

I just read how you went down... wow! I'm glad you're here to tell us about it. This is what I fear when riding through an intersection or where a car can cut across a median; that's why I try not to ride the left side of the lane at those times.

Since I was walking and talking, I also refused the ambulance ride from my rain down. Thankfully the CPD officer hung around until after the adrenaline wore off. He had to call Sunstar about 15 minutes later (when I passed out) to transport me to the hospital. Hopefully others will be able to learn from this and get themselves checked out when having a hard impact or hitting their head.

I hope the cager has good insurance and you continue healing!
I usually ride out of Largo, feel free to PM me when you're ready to get out there.

 

Damn bro that sucks, see thats why im an advocate on older people needing to be screened once a year after 60, because their attention span and their attention level is really low and that could possibly cost someone there life. but im gla to hear things are good now, but like f2b said, im down to ride with you when u get back on the bike.