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its just boggles me i have never let anything get me down. and now i just want to cry(which i am after reading your story) i have thought about ending it all sometimes but i dont think i ever would. i dont know though see you have positves you have someone there for you to share your pain with i am all alone here. i dont talk about this with my family cause i dont want them to start to mourn again afterall they seem to be doing very good. so i just stay to myself and sometimes it hurts and sometimes it doesnt.
for the first time in my life i guess i feel alone and the one person that i really looked up to and had reppect for i gone now. thats why i spend so much time in my work shop cause me and him worked on things out there and it reminds me of him and it actualy makes me happy. i am trying to get things together but i just cant seem to accomplish jack shit. i am rolling with the punched but damn they are starting to hurt.
for the first time in my life i guess i feel alone and the one person that i really looked up to and had reppect for i gone now. thats why i spend so much time in my work shop cause me and him worked on things out there and it reminds me of him and it actualy makes me happy. i am trying to get things together but i just cant seem to accomplish jack shit. i am rolling with the punched but damn they are starting to hurt.
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justin.. cmon man.. dont tlak like that.. ithink weve ALL been there.. i almost did kill meself once. my senior yr in highschool.
it was very hard.. my dad attempted suicide by downing 3 bottles of pain killers and sucking back a case of beer. im the one that found him and revived him. i had the first girl i ever actually loved cheat on me (my senior yr) and leave me. my grades were slipping.. i told my mother i wanted to die and she changed the subject. i grew up getting beaten by a drunk and and i lost my uncle john (tonys dad) whom i thought of as my dad b/c he actually did fatherly things with tony and i was always invited along. hes the only one who ever congradulated me and gave me any words of encouragement. my dad simply said ok whenever i showed him anything. so i know what hurt is... but you come back. we all do.. its hard i know.. im sure most of us know. its hard to do when you have to learn everything yourself and earn it all. gimme a buzz man... but after 4 please (i cant get calls at work)
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it was very hard.. my dad attempted suicide by downing 3 bottles of pain killers and sucking back a case of beer. im the one that found him and revived him. i had the first girl i ever actually loved cheat on me (my senior yr) and leave me. my grades were slipping.. i told my mother i wanted to die and she changed the subject. i grew up getting beaten by a drunk and and i lost my uncle john (tonys dad) whom i thought of as my dad b/c he actually did fatherly things with tony and i was always invited along. hes the only one who ever congradulated me and gave me any words of encouragement. my dad simply said ok whenever i showed him anything. so i know what hurt is... but you come back. we all do.. its hard i know.. im sure most of us know. its hard to do when you have to learn everything yourself and earn it all. gimme a buzz man... but after 4 please (i cant get calls at work)
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I lost my twin brother when I was 8 years old and was rejected by my parents because I looked like him. I was homeless scared and hungry. My friends took me in from time to time but I lived up at the Wal-Mart plaza most of the time. I managed to stay in school but barely and made money by being a criminal. I got involved in organized crime and did a lot of things I wish I could take back. Years went by and I was finally able to go back home. I was kicked out of the public school system and several private schools for violence and drugs until I landed myself in a school where I could put my guard down. The reason I could do that was because the previous schools owner was so pissed at me that he refused to send my transcripts for 6 months.
My second day of school there I was caught smoking and the principle told me to come see him in his office when I was done. I don;t know why but as he was walking away I walked up to him and told him that I was smoking because I was addicted not because I wanted to rebel. He looked at me put his hand on my shoulder and said its okay I understand. That was the first time in a long time I had been honest with anyone and the first time in a long time someone had forgiven me. Mr. Fuller was his name and he forever changed my life with something so small and stupid as that. It might not seem like much but it meant everything in the world to me. Because of that I was able to forgive my parents and able to understand why they had felt the way they felt. I found that forgiving people instead of dwelling on it gave me more power to do better things in my life and to move on.
Life continues to be a tragedy but I dont think God gives you anything you cant handle. I found my best friend Jay dead and I continue to lose and average of three friends per year. It sucks and it hurts but this is life and somewhere in the mess of it all are lessons to be learned to make you a better and stronger person. You cant learn about life without seeing life and you cant appreciate life without living it. Just remember guys when things are at their worst....they can only ever get better. Things dont tie together so dont treat them as one big cluster fuck or youll never learn the individual lessons each event was intended to teach you.
I think everyone of us carries a lot of very deep rooted scars but thats what makes us the people we are. Though painful those scars define us and guide us in life. Dont let them control you thats not what theyre there for. If you dont lead a life chase after it and leave the things in that belong in the past youll never be able to move on and youll never find what youre looking for....
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Life can really suck.
I wont go into detail but I never knew my parents when they were married. Divorce was a normal thing to me. NO-ONE in my family was still married to their first spouse. I lived with my Mom in the projects in Boston till I was 7. We lived off whatever food my Mom could steal from the local supermarket. Then I moved to New Hampshire to live with my Dad and his Wife. She put scars in me that will never come out. I begged for the summers I could spend with my Mom and her stolen Mac n Cheese.
Friends always meant the most to me. I am Lucky to have lots of good people as friends. But there were bad apples that betrayed me and I have still not figured out how to understand how some people think. When you are 18 working at a Pizza joint and your roomate/friend steals all your rent/utility and personal money its pretty rough.
I moved to FL Where my Mom had moved to in 1995 with my Girlfriend of 2 years. 2 years later we married. I was so scared to do it because of the results I was brought up seeing but I did it because I loved her and never wanted to lose her. We had our bad times but all in all I couldnt have asked for a better relationship. I used to brag to my friends about her when they would bitch about their wives and girlfriends. Then 3 years later she decided it would be a good idea to cheat on me. I left our house with everything in it took my car and clothes and moved in with my Mom. She moved in with her parents. I went back to the house 2 weeks later to check my mail and found she was living at the house WITH her new boyfriend. I then filed for divorce and it was final May 7th 2001.
This has been VERY hard on me. I am torn between being lonely not trusting another woman feeling Its not fair to think that....and so on. The only thing I have to keep my mind off things is my car. Im glad it has been good to me.
Through it all my Mom has been there for me. I feel so out of place in her house but she does everything and more to keep my spirits up and make me feel welcome and wanted here. I appreciate her so much. I might owe her my life at this point. I guess I should tell her that.
I wont go into detail but I never knew my parents when they were married. Divorce was a normal thing to me. NO-ONE in my family was still married to their first spouse. I lived with my Mom in the projects in Boston till I was 7. We lived off whatever food my Mom could steal from the local supermarket. Then I moved to New Hampshire to live with my Dad and his Wife. She put scars in me that will never come out. I begged for the summers I could spend with my Mom and her stolen Mac n Cheese.
Friends always meant the most to me. I am Lucky to have lots of good people as friends. But there were bad apples that betrayed me and I have still not figured out how to understand how some people think. When you are 18 working at a Pizza joint and your roomate/friend steals all your rent/utility and personal money its pretty rough.
I moved to FL Where my Mom had moved to in 1995 with my Girlfriend of 2 years. 2 years later we married. I was so scared to do it because of the results I was brought up seeing but I did it because I loved her and never wanted to lose her. We had our bad times but all in all I couldnt have asked for a better relationship. I used to brag to my friends about her when they would bitch about their wives and girlfriends. Then 3 years later she decided it would be a good idea to cheat on me. I left our house with everything in it took my car and clothes and moved in with my Mom. She moved in with her parents. I went back to the house 2 weeks later to check my mail and found she was living at the house WITH her new boyfriend. I then filed for divorce and it was final May 7th 2001.
This has been VERY hard on me. I am torn between being lonely not trusting another woman feeling Its not fair to think that....and so on. The only thing I have to keep my mind off things is my car. Im glad it has been good to me.
Through it all my Mom has been there for me. I feel so out of place in her house but she does everything and more to keep my spirits up and make me feel welcome and wanted here. I appreciate her so much. I might owe her my life at this point. I guess I should tell her that.
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The worst thats happened to me was that we were rather poor when I was young. My dad worked for 6 months at a time in alaska and canada on the drill rigs to support the family in florida. He came back for a few weeks and then dissapeared. This during the prime years when i needed fatherly direction and for quite some tyime in elementary school my mom was the only one who was around. I love my father and everythign he did but he still works 13 hour days despite the fact that me and my brother are out on our own. The only reason we have a close bond is because he accidentlaly ran me over (long story) with a work truck and hasnt forgiven himself. I feel bad becasue it was an accident and he blames himself. I appreciate al he did but I really would have liked to have him be there when I did most of my major acheviments in life.
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well my life has had a lot of ups and downs...my life has been pretty good till my first year of college. I had been dating this girl for 3 years and i really loved her more than anything(ask justin) then one of my friends betrayed me and she cheated on me after 3 years with my friend...after that it went down hill...to make a long story short she broke up with me and i though life was basically over. this hurt me so much at the time i could do anything for weeks...finally i got over this after partying for a few months and i met jessica (my wife) and we dated for 3 months then she got pregnant with little mama(Mackenzie)..i was happy yet scared..neither me or my sisters had kids so i was the first. mom and dad were happy but their marriage was on the rocks. Well Mackenzie was born and all was happy then my mom told me they were getting divorced..OMG...i didnt know what to do...i dont beleive in divorce myself and my parents are getting divorced...i stil dont know what to do aboutt his..every day i see my mom and her boyfriend and it feels so weird.
Another down time for me was when Mackenzie got baptized...my mom and dad were fighting(mid divorce) and it was the day or the baptizim...all my family was here..even family form Massachusetts. everyone was there but my mom cause she didnt want to see my dad..i cried almost the whole day..i didnt want mackenzies day to be wrecked...i ll never forget this day..it really sucked. i was so mad at my mom for not coming..it wasnt fair to Mackenzie..they are her grandparents they should both be there for her.
well anyways i am still trying to cope with my parents divorce i dont know what to feel..i really actually dont unbderstand nor will i ever understand i dont think.
i am getting out of my low slump now though..i have just payed off my car and bought a house...i have wanted both forever..now i just want to see mackenzie grow up and be the best she can. She is my life now and i wouldnt change that. love my daughter more than anything in the world.(yes even more than my car
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OH and one more thing referring to Nosextremes post and i quote:a3198c04c1: i think sometimes i get so lonely that i push myself off on the only 2 people i hang out with and then they ignore me like a an asshole......i am really sorry if you feel that way but you got to understand that i have a family too....your my best friend man i am here for ya whenever you need me. To talk to or just hang out!!! whatever you need!!!
ok i am done now...
Another down time for me was when Mackenzie got baptized...my mom and dad were fighting(mid divorce) and it was the day or the baptizim...all my family was here..even family form Massachusetts. everyone was there but my mom cause she didnt want to see my dad..i cried almost the whole day..i didnt want mackenzies day to be wrecked...i ll never forget this day..it really sucked. i was so mad at my mom for not coming..it wasnt fair to Mackenzie..they are her grandparents they should both be there for her.
well anyways i am still trying to cope with my parents divorce i dont know what to feel..i really actually dont unbderstand nor will i ever understand i dont think.
i am getting out of my low slump now though..i have just payed off my car and bought a house...i have wanted both forever..now i just want to see mackenzie grow up and be the best she can. She is my life now and i wouldnt change that. love my daughter more than anything in the world.(yes even more than my car
)OH and one more thing referring to Nosextremes post and i quote:a3198c04c1: i think sometimes i get so lonely that i push myself off on the only 2 people i hang out with and then they ignore me like a an asshole......i am really sorry if you feel that way but you got to understand that i have a family too....your my best friend man i am here for ya whenever you need me. To talk to or just hang out!!! whatever you need!!!
ok i am done now...
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