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I am at a complete loss.
Well it has finally started to set in, what you ask ? The news my mother confirmed last week and that is she has breast cancer. For a few weeks now I have picked up on something was going on but was not certain what exactly it was.
She lives here locally and I have always been very close and overprotective of her so it is not like she is some distant figure in my life. She picks up and plays with my kids three days a week from school and we go out to lunch quite often. She is very vital to me in every aspect of my life and always has been.
I do not know where to start with any of this which is very frustrating for me since I am normally very decisive and strong willed.
My attention span is shot and my drive to do anything outside of my family life is way down. I am not letting it effect work because I can't and won't but it is hard not to.
Some might have noticed I have been on TR less lately because I just can not string a thought together and do not feel like taking a chance of arguing with anyone about anything right now (imagine that ! ).. I think I will get back into staying mostly in the Tech forums since they do not have the TRama of FFA. I have been working hard on bickering less on TR even before this news so if you see me snap off at someone don't be afraid to send me a PM and tell me to knock it off.
Thankfully I have a supportive wife that is going to make me get out on the weekends so I have some type of mental break from thinking about this 24/7 so you should still see me around at various gatherings / events. If you don't see me around send a search party for me.
Not quite sure where I am going with any of this, I guess I just felt compelled to share it here since so many of the people I hang out with are on TR.
She goes in for surgery next week (21st) then has radiation after that for three weeks so please keep her in your thoughts at least until this is over. I hope all of the after tests show it was confined to one area.
Thanks for reading my rare emo post.
She lives here locally and I have always been very close and overprotective of her so it is not like she is some distant figure in my life. She picks up and plays with my kids three days a week from school and we go out to lunch quite often. She is very vital to me in every aspect of my life and always has been.
I do not know where to start with any of this which is very frustrating for me since I am normally very decisive and strong willed.
My attention span is shot and my drive to do anything outside of my family life is way down. I am not letting it effect work because I can't and won't but it is hard not to.
Some might have noticed I have been on TR less lately because I just can not string a thought together and do not feel like taking a chance of arguing with anyone about anything right now (imagine that ! ).. I think I will get back into staying mostly in the Tech forums since they do not have the TRama of FFA. I have been working hard on bickering less on TR even before this news so if you see me snap off at someone don't be afraid to send me a PM and tell me to knock it off.
Thankfully I have a supportive wife that is going to make me get out on the weekends so I have some type of mental break from thinking about this 24/7 so you should still see me around at various gatherings / events. If you don't see me around send a search party for me.
Not quite sure where I am going with any of this, I guess I just felt compelled to share it here since so many of the people I hang out with are on TR.
She goes in for surgery next week (21st) then has radiation after that for three weeks so please keep her in your thoughts at least until this is over. I hope all of the after tests show it was confined to one area.
Thanks for reading my rare emo post.
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Wow Scott, In a way I feel your pain with this post.
I got a call from my sister in Jax last night that my dad ( who had knee surgery earlier that day due to an old injury from 40 years ago) was in an ambulance on his way to the hospital, and his boss - the President of the company he works for (since my mom and dad are on their own in Cleveland) and my mom were headed to the hospital. My sister said - "Mom thinks dad had a stroke"! My first thought was OMG I'm going to lose my father. It wasn't any easier having my younger sister breaking down and crying to me over the phone about it - I could tell she was scared.
All they told me was that they think he had a stroke. Apparently his eyes had crossed - he said something to my mom about not being able to see, and he passed out. The firefighters in the ambulance said he had lost some use of the muscles on one side of his body / face, and couldn't speak very well, but he was awake and lucid.
I didn't hear back for an hour until I heard he was being tested and they still had no clue, but that he was awake and kidding with the doctors a little.
They still don't know what happened - he's still in the ICU, he sounds really really bad when I called him a few hours ago. In my entire life I have never heard him sound so tired and weak. We're still hoping everything will come out ok. Now they are talking about him maybe having pneumonia.
Basically in a matter of a minute last night my life went from fine to "what am I going to do".
Even though I talked to him and he is awake and seems to be in ok spirits - I am still not really ok yet. I am still completely freaked out about it, and thoughts of what would happen if things took a turn for the worse have been filling my head.
I already lost both grandfathers a few years ago - I'm not ready to lose my dad!
I hope that your mom comes through this ok, and that your family stays strong and supportive through all of it.
I got a call from my sister in Jax last night that my dad ( who had knee surgery earlier that day due to an old injury from 40 years ago) was in an ambulance on his way to the hospital, and his boss - the President of the company he works for (since my mom and dad are on their own in Cleveland) and my mom were headed to the hospital. My sister said - "Mom thinks dad had a stroke"! My first thought was OMG I'm going to lose my father. It wasn't any easier having my younger sister breaking down and crying to me over the phone about it - I could tell she was scared.
All they told me was that they think he had a stroke. Apparently his eyes had crossed - he said something to my mom about not being able to see, and he passed out. The firefighters in the ambulance said he had lost some use of the muscles on one side of his body / face, and couldn't speak very well, but he was awake and lucid.
I didn't hear back for an hour until I heard he was being tested and they still had no clue, but that he was awake and kidding with the doctors a little.
They still don't know what happened - he's still in the ICU, he sounds really really bad when I called him a few hours ago. In my entire life I have never heard him sound so tired and weak. We're still hoping everything will come out ok. Now they are talking about him maybe having pneumonia.
Basically in a matter of a minute last night my life went from fine to "what am I going to do".
Even though I talked to him and he is awake and seems to be in ok spirits - I am still not really ok yet. I am still completely freaked out about it, and thoughts of what would happen if things took a turn for the worse have been filling my head.
I already lost both grandfathers a few years ago - I'm not ready to lose my dad!
I hope that your mom comes through this ok, and that your family stays strong and supportive through all of it.
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Sorry to hear that. Luckily here in TOTD you have the support of all of us.
I'll add her to my prayer list.
I'll add her to my prayer list.
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Socialized Medicine?
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Socialized Medicine?
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