Id like to know what happened, but its its noen of my business really. I have an idea, and always wondered for awhile though but anyway. I've never been cheated on persay, but I do remener when my now ex went to colorado for a week, I went thru some of her emails. I found an email to one of her mail listing friends where she had talked about leaving me, and that she was talking to some other car she had met. I must say... I threw up twice, I could stop thinking about it. I called her in colorado, and told her I was so upset. I mean I had acutally thought about not telling her I know, and just moving out, and say I will pick her from the airport and not do it. Leave a note with a copy of the email and telling her I never want to see her again. I mean as far as I was concerned she might as well had cheated on me. It hurt a lot and even 6-7 months later it still hurts. We still stayed together because I was so in love with her, in fact I still am. But for months she wanted out but could never tell me how she acutally felt. I really wish she had dragged it on for so long. I mean the last days together were so much fun and I was getting closer to her, but she shoulda have just ended it liek she wanted too. I was trying to save it, but now I realize it shoulda just been ended. Im still upset at her for looking for someone else while she was still with me. I told her I hope someone does it to her so she knows how it feels. I mean its a horrible feeling and no one should expierence it all, but I wish she would so she knows. I still think about her everday, but I ended us talking about a month ago. I figured she was never ever going to really miss me unless I was gone for real. We were together almost 6 years. We were engaged, we were so in love with each other. We were each out many firsts for a lot of things. Ive ahd to come with grips about a lot of things, and knowing I just need to move on. Which is a hard part for someone like myself, cause usually I can just my entire self at a whim. Being single sucks I know that much. I really miss that great feeling when we held each other. But I can tell you things do get better. I know things would get better too, but the hard part is the time between.I want to say try and stay busy and dont think about it, thats the best advice I can give, but believe me, its very hard to do.

But yes things to get better, and maybe it was for the best? But there is always someone to talk to

 

Cheaters suck at life. Normally they don't change their ways.