yea its one of those things, I realized I wasnt happ ywith my life like I thought I was, I was more just content, but once I realized how I was acting I wanted to change, I know bitterness gets me no where and in fact it makes me feel closed off from the people I do care about, its not even bitterness at a person or a spacific problem but bitterness of the lack of a spacific outcome, this wasnt brought on by any person this was something I just wanted to state, also I feel like I need to buy yall a beer just for listening to me bitch