well going home was pretty hard. it hit me when i walked in to see a playpen filled with toys that will never get touched again and knowing i can never play with the little guys again

this morning i found out that a one year old baby in texas had his life saved with my brothers liver and a 22 year old girl in SWFL got his kidneys. she had been waiting for a very long time but has had a hard time receving the organ becuase how petite she is
they were in the newspaper again this morning and the picture made me smile. i mean i know which pic they were going to use since it was from my myspace and all but idk, i love that picture. i can remember grabbing my phone to go take it. all i had to do to get their attention was show them my phone and they would look and laugh

the paper even had some quotes from the posts i had made at the hospital, i guess the media has skill LOL and a little segment about the tattoo im planning on getting

im going to write their obituary (sp?) rite now and then at 3 get the first part of my tat. its going to be a pretty badass cross from just below my chest down to my hip. not all the way on the side of my body but along my rips. the cross is going to have a scroll along the top part that says RIP and then a second scroll will say twins. on each side of the cross their is going to be a grave stone with names and dates on it. hopefully it comes out great

then the most important part of my tattoo in thier name is going to be a portrait of them when they were crawling, playing, and laughing. i want in on my chest just above the cross, close to my heart. scbinc on mafia-motorsports has agreed to pay for it which makes me extremly grateful and happy. i want to be able to always look down and know they are with me

i have also thought about getting each ones handprinted tattooed on my traps, i think the meaning of it is pretty special. today i started thinking about how hard its going to be for me to deal with losing them as ill be reminded every birthday that it should be their bothday as well. the funneral should be saturday morning, ill post an exact time/location tommorow. they will be burried side by side in the same coffin, hand in hand
well i g2g make my 3 o clock deadline for the obituary, ill post up after my tattoo. its going to be so hard writing this