Im not gonna bullshit man, I couldn't work right all day because I was thinking about this so much, it was just throwing me off big time. My little sister was born a premature cleft lip and pallet baby. She spent the first month of her life in a incubator and has been threw sixteen surgeries. I have watched her die three times and had to resesitate her twice. So this hits very hard to heart and I commend you sir for keeping you're sanity and coming to terms with it. I couldn't do the same.