well my life has had a lot of ups and downs...my life has been pretty good till my first year of college. I had been dating this girl for 3 years and i really loved her more than anything(ask justin) then one of my friends betrayed me and she cheated on me after 3 years with my friend...after that it went down hill...to make a long story short she broke up with me and i though life was basically over. this hurt me so much at the time i could do anything for weeks...finally i got over this after partying for a few months and i met jessica (my wife) and we dated for 3 months then she got pregnant with little mama(Mackenzie)..i was happy yet scared..neither me or my sisters had kids so i was the first. mom and dad were happy but their marriage was on the rocks. Well Mackenzie was born and all was happy then my mom told me they were getting divorced..OMG...i didnt know what to do...i dont beleive in divorce myself and my parents are getting divorced...i stil dont know what to do aboutt his..every day i see my mom and her boyfriend and it feels so weird.
Another down time for me was when Mackenzie got baptized...my mom and dad were fighting(mid divorce) and it was the day or the baptizim...all my family was here..even family form Massachusetts. everyone was there but my mom cause she didnt want to see my dad..i cried almost the whole day..i didnt want mackenzies day to be wrecked...i ll never forget this day..it really sucked. i was so mad at my mom for not coming..it wasnt fair to Mackenzie..they are her grandparents they should both be there for her.
well anyways i am still trying to cope with my parents divorce i dont know what to feel..i really actually dont unbderstand nor will i ever understand i dont think.
i am getting out of my low slump now though..i have just payed off my car and bought a house...i have wanted both forever..now i just want to see mackenzie grow up and be the best she can. She is my life now and i wouldnt change that. love my daughter more than anything in the world.(yes even more than my car)

OH and one more thing referring to Nosextremes post and i quote:a3198c04c1: i think sometimes i get so lonely that i push myself off on the only 2 people i hang out with and then they ignore me like a an asshole......i am really sorry if you feel that way but you got to understand that i have a family too....your my best friend man i am here for ya whenever you need me. To talk to or just hang out!!! whatever you need!!!

ok i am done now...