Life can really suck.
I wont go into detail but I never knew my parents when they were married. Divorce was a normal thing to me. NO-ONE in my family was still married to their first spouse. I lived with my Mom in the projects in Boston till I was 7. We lived off whatever food my Mom could steal from the local supermarket. Then I moved to New Hampshire to live with my Dad and his Wife. She put scars in me that will never come out. I begged for the summers I could spend with my Mom and her stolen Mac n Cheese.
Friends always meant the most to me. I am Lucky to have lots of good people as friends. But there were bad apples that betrayed me and I have still not figured out how to understand how some people think. When you are 18 working at a Pizza joint and your roomate/friend steals all your rent/utility and personal money its pretty rough.
I moved to FL Where my Mom had moved to in 1995 with my Girlfriend of 2 years. 2 years later we married. I was so scared to do it because of the results I was brought up seeing but I did it because I loved her and never wanted to lose her. We had our bad times but all in all I couldnt have asked for a better relationship. I used to brag to my friends about her when they would bitch about their wives and girlfriends. Then 3 years later she decided it would be a good idea to cheat on me. I left our house with everything in it took my car and clothes and moved in with my Mom. She moved in with her parents. I went back to the house 2 weeks later to check my mail and found she was living at the house WITH her new boyfriend. I then filed for divorce and it was final May 7th 2001.
This has been VERY hard on me. I am torn between being lonely not trusting another woman feeling Its not fair to think that....and so on. The only thing I have to keep my mind off things is my car. Im glad it has been good to me.
Through it all my Mom has been there for me. I feel so out of place in her house but she does everything and more to keep my spirits up and make me feel welcome and wanted here. I appreciate her so much. I might owe her my life at this point. I guess I should tell her that.