So I've not been able to get online much of late. There's been a wicked change of pace the past few weeks. As some of you may have read, my better half (Amanda) & I found out that we were going to be parents back on Valentine's Day. While we weren't quite prepared for this task, we accepted the responsibility, and agreed to make the sacrifices needed in order to make that a success for all of us involved.

However, as fate, and God, would have it - we're not quite ready for the parental endeavor. Amanda had a terrible misfortune on Monday, March 10th. Just a few days before then end of our first tri-mester, she had a miscarriage. By far this has been, and was, the most emotional thing I've personally had to endure in my short lifetime.

Of course the emotional part is reciprocating amongst both of us. However, the physical aspects only involved Amanda. So for the past 10 days we've been having to revisit the emotional portion, due to the physical presence and reminder... Obviously her body underwent many changes by becoming pregnant to begin with; then the same took place when we lost the baby. Too many details, much of which very graphic, to go on about - but you get the idea.

Things are looking up; Amanda is feeling much better - both emotionally and physically now. I've been able to look to/for the positive aspect of this situation and realize that God, while taking the baby from us, has also given us a gift. The gift of time. Something we would have been hard pressed for otherwise.

So to my friends that have called, emailed, and PM'd me - this is the reason for my lack of involvement recently... Hopefully we'll be able to start getting back to "normal" around here again now, as things have gotten much better these past few days!!

-Josh