John i sincerely hope that wasnt shot at me.. jimmy... look man.. were cool but who was the first one i talked ot about my problem.. you. thats right. i dint go behind your back..i didnt act fake. i gave you how i feel carte blanche up front. i dont do it quite so bluntly with others. i have great respect for you but my feelings were REALLY hurt being as these guy are my friends too. we have gotten so high and mighty. i dont see myself as an elitist or anything. and i dont htink anyone should be treated differently. when carey got in her accident sat night and i found out later.. my first question was is she okay.. there was a whole group (3rdshift guys) ragging on her and i defended her b/c it was fucked. as annoying as people may be sometimes they are still human and deserve comapssion. i couldnt find it in me to continue on the night having fun while someone i know was in pain.. emotionaly and physically. and it hurt me VERY badly that others could just go on about the night. i got onto Jesse too jimmy.. you werent singled out. i gave otny hell and he just brushed it off. so you werent alone. i was pissed off; and feelings hurt. and i didnt appreciate how the situation was handled. i wouldve thought that being a paramedic you wouldve been the FIRST one to turn around. thats waht shocked me the most. but hey.. im once again the bad guy... this seems to happen wherever i go.. maybe you should stay jimmy.. ill be the one to leave