This is a message she just sent me

" hello danny myspace friend...

hope ur day is going well.. it sure is a beautiful day... wish mine was going a little better...

i woke up feeling awesome because i got the best night sleep that i had gotten in a long time...
i got dressed up a little... the sun was so bright and there were tons of clouds out... perfect day....
until it wasn't anymore really...

i dunno... maybe i am an idoit... but gettin out of my car on college, at my best friends house, i got honked at a couple of times and then some old black man on a bike yelled some yucky stuff at me and i wasn't dressed provocatively!!
i have on a sweater with a shirt under it.. a skirt that is not super short or anything and then some heels...
well basically my outfit kinda ruined my day because i really wanted to go out and do something fun and i think me gettin honked at and shit, while walkin into my friends house and shit just kinda killed the mood of wanting to do something or something i dunno...
she just didn't act the same and told her boyfriend about it and all and i dunno it just made me more uncomfortable about the situation and all i really wanted to do was go out to lunch or somewhere to enjoy the great day... but they just wanted to stay in kinda... shit if i know what was really going on... but man i dunno i am just kinda bummed right now...
i think i am going to take a nap in hopes that i will wake up, put on some fuckin sweatpants and try this day again lookin like shit...
sucks that when i feel pretty it and put some effort into my look... its like everyone thinks that all i want is attention or that i am trying to impress someone, when really i just felt good so i chose to dress my mood...

really sucks..
im pretty sad right now actually... maybe i am being dramatic but this shit just gets to me anymore... it'd be different if i had a guy or something, but in a way it just makes me look at myself like i think a lot of strangers do.... pretty, dumb/easy blond...
i hate it.
i cant hardly take a compliment anymore because in a way i just feel like somehow they are missing what is important to me in it or something... i dunno
jeeze
i am making too big of a deal out of this all but it just feels very isolating because i am flattered and thankful for looking okay, but its just hard to be me when i dont know if anyone really sees me"