I hear you man. Sounds like you got a bad situation on your hands there, with the past tickets and suspended license and stuff. It always seems that way unfortunately, in regards to the other person's property damage and/or medical bills. I feel bad that you're going through all of this, and not to be a dick or anything, but that's your fault that you dug yourself into a hole from your past actions. Hate to see that happen to such a nice car too. Anyway though, sounds like you need to get your priorities in order, lol. Take care of the legal shit and stay clean as a driver, then worry about modding your car later. The situation sucks balls and it will bother you for some time I'm sure (as is the case with anybody in an accident), but life will go on. Keep your head up.