I've been to too many funerals of riders who made some poor decisions. This thread is circulating to several different online riders forums. People are wondering how long it will take you to kill yourself because of this poor decision. I hope you take other riders' advice seriously and garage the bike for a while and learn on something else. For a long time.
Not what you want to hear, but eulogies are not really what anyone wants to hear either then, is it?