Well it has finally started to set in, what you ask ? The news my mother confirmed last week and that is she has breast cancer. For a few weeks now I have picked up on something was going on but was not certain what exactly it was.

She lives here locally and I have always been very close and overprotective of her so it is not like she is some distant figure in my life. She picks up and plays with my kids three days a week from school and we go out to lunch quite often. She is very vital to me in every aspect of my life and always has been.

I do not know where to start with any of this which is very frustrating for me since I am normally very decisive and strong willed.

My attention span is shot and my drive to do anything outside of my family life is way down. I am not letting it effect work because I can't and won't but it is hard not to.

Some might have noticed I have been on TR less lately because I just can not string a thought together and do not feel like taking a chance of arguing with anyone about anything right now (imagine that ! ).. I think I will get back into staying mostly in the Tech forums since they do not have the TRama of FFA. I have been working hard on bickering less on TR even before this news so if you see me snap off at someone don't be afraid to send me a PM and tell me to knock it off.

Thankfully I have a supportive wife that is going to make me get out on the weekends so I have some type of mental break from thinking about this 24/7 so you should still see me around at various gatherings / events. If you don't see me around send a search party for me.

Not quite sure where I am going with any of this, I guess I just felt compelled to share it here since so many of the people I hang out with are on TR.

She goes in for surgery next week (21st) then has radiation after that for three weeks so please keep her in your thoughts at least until this is over. I hope all of the after tests show it was confined to one area.

Thanks for reading my rare emo post.