First a curveball, then a knuckler.......

[MiDiablo]

So I've not been able to get online much of late. There's been a wicked change of pace the past few weeks. As some of you may have read, my better half (Amanda) & I found out that we were going to be parents back on Valentine's Day. While we weren't quite prepared for this task, we accepted the responsibility, and agreed to make the sacrifices needed in order to make that a success for all of us involved.

However, as fate, and God, would have it - we're not quite ready for the parental endeavor. Amanda had a terrible misfortune on Monday, March 10th. Just a few days before then end of our first tri-mester, she had a miscarriage. By far this has been, and was, the most emotional thing I've personally had to endure in my short lifetime.

Of course the emotional part is reciprocating amongst both of us. However, the physical aspects only involved Amanda. So for the past 10 days we've been having to revisit the emotional portion, due to the physical presence and reminder... Obviously her body underwent many changes by becoming pregnant to begin with; then the same took place when we lost the baby. Too many details, much of which very graphic, to go on about - but you get the idea.

Things are looking up; Amanda is feeling much better - both emotionally and physically now. I've been able to look to/for the positive aspect of this situation and realize that God, while taking the baby from us, has also given us a gift. The gift of time. Something we would have been hard pressed for otherwise.

So to my friends that have called, emailed, and PM'd me - this is the reason for my lack of involvement recently... Hopefully we'll be able to start getting back to "normal" around here again now, as things have gotten much better these past few days!!

-Josh

[Ink]

Wow, sorry to hear it. I found out the other day my moms first kid (or what would of been) was a miscarriage, and if she was born, I wouldn't be here, along with my other brothers and sisters..my science teacher told me theres about a 1 in 150 million chance that you were the one that was born, so my life as I know it, wouldnt of happened if she was born. With that put aside, maybe its a sign, that although it didn't work out this time, your next one will be healthy. And one day when their older and you tell them the story, they'll be understanding and appreciate as to what they have in life, and how lucky they are to just be here. Im gettin all choked up now lol, well i'm sorry to hear it, and wish the best for the both of you.

[Stoopid Wendy]

aw hunny, i'm so sorry to hear that. i know the pain that surrounds a loss such as this and it goes terribly deep. remember, but don't let it linger. my thoughts are with both of you.

but on the lighter side, this can be a blessing for you in that it gives you an opportunity to make sure things are taken care of the way they should be until you are ready to make such a commitment on your own terms... to choose the path you walk down and not have those choices made for you. a second chance to be a young couple doing the things that young couples do. :)

take care. i am glad amanda has someone like you.

[Stewart Scott]

wow Josh, thinking of you guys on good friday. thank the happy hippie upstairs that she is all right!

[864I'DCaprI]

Sorry to hear that man, my wife and I went through one also, very sad. You know where you can find if ya need something...

[95coBraSVT]

Wow Josh and Amanda. Sorry to hear about this. I was justthinking that it had been a while since I had seen you online. Please remember, that no matter what YOU two may think, He has a plan for everything. Maybe this was just a preparation call for greater things to come. (like twins or triplets next time) If (large "if" there) you are blessed to have many children, know that Someone prepared you for it beforehand by giving you a wake up call. Some people (like me and my wife) weren't quite as lucky.

This will also help the two of you grow stronger in your relationship together.

[Ford DNA]

My sister lost her first, too. The only way to look at it is - the baby wasn't normal, wasn't healthy, and wasn't meant to be a part of this world. Sister got pregnant again about 6 months later, and now has a beautiful, healthy 2 year old girl. That's the baby what was meant to be here!

I'm so sorry for what you've been through. I wouldn't wish a miscarriage on anybody. :(

[79 pace car]

sorry to hear that man.

[racingrick]

my condolences

[ODB]

The only way to look at it is - the baby wasn't normal, wasn't healthy, and wasn't meant to be a part of this world.

exactly what I told Josh last week.......this is fact Amanda. Must have been some abnormality to the fetus/embryo..My 2nd wife and I had a miscarriage.....it was crushing.....

6 months later she got prego'ed again (i have super sperm) and we had our blue eyed beauty Allyson Patricia....she's 7 now.

[LS1COUPE]

sorry to hear.

[Adrenalin]

Sorry to hear Josh. My wife and I are trying to have another and I'm not sure how we would be able to handle it. Stay strong bro, when the time is right it will all work out.

[Tiffiny]

sorry also for your loss keep your head up

[slow poke]

sorry to hear it josh...:( my ex and i also went through a miscarriage (after my daughter was born) but a short time later my son came into this world... :D hang in there !!! :)

[Sleeperlx]

Sorry about the loss, Glad to hear everybody is doing all right. My thoughts and payers go out to you and Amanda. If you need anything let me know.

[blacksheep-1]

Well here's my point of view, I believe that life begins at conception, and my wife also had a miscarriage 23 years ago. I know that one day, I'm going to be able to meet my kid. We're gonna have a lot of stuff to go over.
I'll keep you guys in my prayers.

[ShakinIt]

Wow man, that's tough....so sorry to hear

[MiDiablo]

Thank you very much to each of your responses, thoughts, and prayers. Today was the first day that Amanda & I were able to get back to church since this happened to us a few weeks ago - and let me just tell you that today's sermon choked me up almost more than I could stomach.

On the flip side, I'd also like to extend my sorrow and condolences to each of you who have also endured this with your spouse or loved one(s). I now know what you'd endured, and am sorry for your losses as well.

Hope you all had a Hoppy Easter ;)

-Josh

[Wade95]

aw hunny, i'm so sorry to hear that. i know the pain that surrounds a loss such as this and it goes terribly deep. remember, but don't let it linger. my thoughts are with both of you.

but on the lighter side, this can be a blessing for you in that it gives you an opportunity to make sure things are taken care of the way they should be until you are ready to make such a commitment on your own terms... to choose the path you walk down and not have those choices made for you. a second chance to be a young couple doing the things that young couples do. :)

take care. i am glad amanda has someone like you.


Ditto Josh,,,stay strong and take care of that woman. Angie and I lost our first (as do most women), and we looked at it as a blessing 'cause she and I weren't ready for that (relationship wise.) Wade

[smokeshow]

Glad to see you are doing ok now...

Hope to see you guys sometime soon... whenever you can... just let us know and come on...